this aint no laughing thing

woke up this morning,
about two a.m.
while a deppressed,
was lying in my gut,
wondering if i belonged,
in a place where i know,
i am loved,
but i question it every night,
years fly by,
and i do nothing,
but whine and cry each night,

this aint no laughing thing,
you cant just laugh off,
no jokes or humor,
to make this wondering go away,
there is time i wish i could make,
this go away,
with the humor of a joke,
but it pointless,
this aint no laughing thing,

while i sit on this couch,
thinking about time gone by,
the time i wasted on this,
and the time i wanted,
to feel alive,
so i try to live my life,
in a love and passion,
one that makes sense,
to me,
but i learn it,
just aint right,
to try and make things,
right on my standard,
it take a knight in shining armor,
more than what i am,
a face of a crowd,
a face of man,
a face of a boy,
smile, wink, and laugh,

this ain't no laughing thing,
you cant just laugh this off.
no joke, no humor,
can make this pain go away,
O' how i wish,
a joke or a laugh,
would make this go away,
but this aint,
no this aint,
this aint no laughing thing,